There’s so many reasons as to why I’m not doing Blogmas this year. I could spiel you a load of glittery bullshit but the truth is, I just can’t be arsed to do it y’know?
I always felt such a huge pressure when I did Blogmas.
Admittedly, I did kinda like the challenge at the same time. But in reality, this year my head just hasn’t been in the blogging game. I considered quitting blogging several times throughout the year, considering how much of a shit show it’s been for me. Sure, I’ve had some really amazing things happen but God, the amount of crap that’s happened, 2018 has not been my ‘blogging year’. There’s just too much pressure when it comes to Blogmas now and having the ‘perfect’ gift guides, posts, photos and all the rest of it.
I think it’s been kinda overdone now.
Let’s be honest, there’s only SO much Christmas related content you can produce. If you’re doing Vlogmas, then that’s obviously a totally different field and 9 times out of 10, each vlog will be different for everyone. But when it’s blogging – you can only do so much before you’re sharing similar content to others. It just becomes saturated. Now, this isn’t to say that for those of you doing Blogmas are bad people, because you’re not. Hats off to you guys for sticking with it. But for me, I just feel like it’s all becoming saturated and that’s when I lose interest. It’s the same when there’s a launch on the latest palette and suddenly you see 123452 reviews of the same palette on your Twitter feed. It just puts me off. Plus, how many times can I mix up my Blogmas posts? Not that much.
It can make you feel like crap.
Literally, every year I put soooooo much pressure on myself. I would beat myself up if I didn’t meet my ‘x, y and z’ Blogmas goal and it wasn’t worth it. Even more so with the nature of my work and how busy I am at this time of the year. I would come home from doing 12 hour days and then stay up late til stupid o’clock trying to smash out as many posts as possible. It just wasn’t worth doing that to myself this year. Especially since I am now like what? Seven months pregnant? So when I get in from work, I just want to relax and sleep to be honest.
I think the thing that’s stopped me the most, is because I don’t know what direction to take my blog now.
This isn’t exactly ‘Blogmas’ or ‘Christmas related’ but it helps explain how I feel. By all this, what I mean is that I feel a little bit ‘lost’. 2018 has been a challenging year, it seems… silly? To stress over posts that probably 30 people will read. My blog feels like it’s just floating. I’m struggling to write beauty related posts consistently – partially because taking photos for said posts just breaks me in half, given my current photo set up. Partially because I feel like my beauty posts just don’t have the same ‘engagement’ as my other posts do. Plus, the fact that I’m moving my Instagram in a new direction involving more home posts, baby posts (for now it’s just bump updates) and more lifestyle shots. Alongside beauty content of course… I’m not sure if my blog should follow suit or not? So I sit here wondering why I should let myself get stupidly stressed out over 25 blog posts when I’m not even sure on what to do with my actual blog. If that makes sense?
Anyway, whatever the hell is going on with me and this ol’ thing, all I know is that Blogmas this year would definitely NOT be a good thing for me.
I don’t regret making the decision to not do it. At first, I felt like I was a failure and that I’d let myself down (see, I was beating myself up about it before I’d even begun it…) but then I just thought to myself, it’s just a blog at the end of the day. I should share content for me and not because I feel pressured to do so. Maybe that’s my problem at the moment, I feel like there’s too much pressure. Who knows, I might do Blogmas or even Christmas related posts next year when I’m not so busy and have Baby Holden to include on the blog. It will be his first Christmas after all (eeeeeek, I’m already so excited and he already has the most perfect Christmas outfit in the wardrobe ready for next year… Not even kidding). This has all been a bit of a moan and ramble hasn’t it? Sorry if it doesn’t really make much sense, I kinda word vomited as per usual. Twitter – Facebook – Instagram – Pinterest – Bloglovin’